Lord bring me back to Bolivia

Today was/is my last day in Bolivia. I've been in Bolivia for 6 weeks now. I feel like I've been here forever but these weeks have gone by fast and I can't believe I'll be getting up at 6am tomorrow to head to the airport boo. First can I tell you a little bit about my last day? It was literally just what I wanted and had asked God for. I am blessed. I spent the day at Cristo Viene. This is how it started...

Laura was in time out for pulling hair. Is it bad that I think this picture is cute? maybe because I wasn't the one who had to put her there.

She's pretty cool :)

Mi amigita Laura. words cannot express the love I have for this little girl. Lord bring me back.

And I will miss moments like these the most.

Wow can I just say I had no idea how hard and wonderful this trip was going to be for me. I really can't type out all that I've learned it would take forever...if you really want to know we can get coffee sometime but i'll probably drink tea.  Mostly I have been learning about trusting God which I think is a brilliant thing to learn but hard. 

Also I've learned I absolutely hate hate hate goodbyes. Being left behind is hard. I have a way better understanding of missionaries now that I have experienced just a smidget of what it is like to be left behind and say goodbye.  Saying goodbye to the kids here is even harder. I sat with little laura at the end of the day today procrastinating telling her that I leave tomorrow while I listened to everything her little 5 year old self could think of telling me(which is A LOT). Finally I told her I had to go back to the states so I could go to school. She wrapped her arms around me and told me I can't leave because I am her amigita and various other things that broke my heart. The last 20 minutes I was there she just kept whispering no sale no sale which translates to don't leave. ugh my heart. ouch. And the hardest part is I don't know when I am coming back. and even when I do I really don't want to be someone who just comes and then leaves in these orphans' lives. I want to consistent but I don't know how I can be which is a little frustrating. Again, learning to trust God...hard but worth it because I know He will bring me back if it is His will.

A few prayer requests if you want to pray.

1. if you read this in time pray for my travels. I am way more nervous than I probably should be but yeah I am REALLY nervous of doing something wrong and not being in the right place and bah. I leave tomorrow early in the morning and will be traveling all day until 11:00 pm so if you think of it please pray for peace and that I don't do anything stupid tomorrow.

2. Pray for my adjustment back to the states because it is WAY different in Bolivia and it's going to be a little bit of a shock for me after 6 weeks.

thanks to everyone who read my posts and has supported me in prayer